Hic Hic Hic Achu!!!

Last night was like a nightmare ,trying to go asleep and battling should I go on a diet,Could not get sleep,then I thought maybe I should go out for a Benson &hedges break.I now know how bad I am at looking after my body.I have a swollen butt hole from barfing up my guts (green sick)My heat rate is messed up as well.all due to vomiting down that STUPID Toilet.The good side of things is Iv been very good atm I havent been throwing up in a long time :) Now I know that if I do it again its possible that I could faint and die or have a heart attack.Ya how I figurged that one out? well the other day blood came pouring outta my butt hole and I was like oh crap now Im going to die!!! anyways enough about that im enjoing reading my book "Cat Magic" keep me relexed.Am on stressed medication coz of the voming before I vomit to get to the toilette A rush of stress comes and I say to myself "okay make sure you finish the meal and run quicky to the bathroom so it wont get fat right  agway" Im taking so much medication for nearly everythign will I ever get over and be healthy again ??? I hope so.I like living in shandra home except for the screaming and all that rumble rumbklbadjkd crap I get every week :(