DIET OR WHAT

So hello again ,Next week Ill be joining Slimming world for people who are over weight the normal range.And since I am over 14stone I think I might need to meet up and loose weight.I have some pictures of before and after pics  to keep me motivated .I missed TAKE-AwaY last night but I had a cheese ham sandwhich last night before bed.I felt so guilty and felt that Im not on track with my Diet.Im sticking to 100calories a day and in 3months Ill loose 3stone ,or even more since im over 30% of fat...... and have mostly muscle so all I have to do is sit ,relex and let muscle wasted .Im listeing to HEY HEY by Superchick at the moment and its helping me not to enter the kitchen .and helping me not to snack on fruit or snack on anything.Iv done an ana book with pictures of skinny girls and tips and trick but that's not helping me loose weight!!I would love to make some friends nxt week and loose weight togeather ,close by.  WATCH THIS SPACE

Highest weight:16stone 5lb
Lowest weight:7stone 5lb
Current weight:15stone 2lb
1st Goal: 12stone
2nd Goal:8stone
Ulmate  Goal:6stone

So its Summer time and I'm all excited that Im going on holidays at the end of the month, Somewhere in the city in Dublin, I think im going for 2-3nights and getting my nails done maybe a cow nails. I want to get back to the gym but Ill see how I go if I can get some shorts and t-shirt ordered on EBAY.com Im going to tone my tummy and boobs ....Im still on zepexia the anti-BUlimc anti -Ana tablet.I'm eating and eating nutritional  foods like soya,fries,and I take a 2 vitamin tablets since Im allergic to citric oranges I get my Vitamin C from a disso able   tablet that I drink with water.That the only thing that's bothering me at the moment I need a friend and with all of this non-sense its really getting to me.Im going to give it my all since I am American ,Well...Im American girl ,my NAME is American so If you shout out my name its like calling a American so.. Irish/American/English tomboy girl ..Im trying my best to o loose the weight I guess being this size wasn't for me and Im very motivated to go and try since nearly everyone I know is GONE :S DEXTOX girl detox

OH NO

UgH IM SO FATTTT,I'm on Zeprexica also Olansapine to stop me from Purging (bulmia) its like a drug that makes you eat more and crave Cheesy pasta bake and Garlic potatoes :( YUM YUM says the staff but I say NO waY not me!!! Jeez why does life suck so much everyone is all bordoom weirdos that smile too much and then wreck the whole house!! aaaah! um so Im just going to detox this time  Its driving me crazy,... Boys want to date me,Girls want to be me. :P SO Im going to use the meds as a movitvation skill and get loads of thinspo from it instead of gaining pounds..Im not afaird of eating chessy pasta bake is the Calories that makes you fat and if you have to EAT like that every week/month u'll get gigantic boobs and a big butt :(

SHhhhh!

Okay so here are some tips that will help you out

Watch a DVD

Drink plenty of liquids

When it starts to hurt drink water instead of going with a low calorie snack.

Look at yourself in the mirror before you get dressed and seeing the fat will start your morning ,(drinking green tea is a good brekkie it curbs your appetite .) beacause if you eat carbs in the morning your more liking to eat something heavy after breakfast!


Never convince yourself that a yogurt is low in calories    even if your eating 500calories a day there is still high in sugar and sugar makes your tired.And in recovery they give you a biscuit,a pot of yogurt,and a cup of tea. so beware of what you eat and don't give in!!

Buy things that you might need from brodoom.Like a Ps4 or Toys like a furby.

Take some time to do your nails ,NAIL ART

MEDICATION Nooooo!!!

So far its March and I went to see the doctor a few days ago and she put me on Dissoluble Paracetamol   tastes really strong YUK! its like drinking heavy beer!! I take my meds 3x a day and I think she put me on an eating disorder tablet ,not sure, she just said its for stress when I purge,to stop me from stressing and running to the toilet to puke up my guts and bile(the green stuff thats in ur stomach) I always know when im finished when I can see a green vomit thats how i know theres no food left in there,in my stomach. Sometimes I rather just Starve,vomit,Starve,Vomit and try to do some excersize .The only thing about the whole vomiting thing is,I get very ill and then I can't stop the cravings to purge.Its like a circle and especially when I get upset its perfect for de-stressing like a relive .

Olanzapine

Thats ^^^^^ the medication im on at the moment thats giving me crazy cravings for food!! 


Well....Um.. Im trying my best to  avoid vomiting and the Doctor psychotherapist told me if I have to vomit then go and vomit. So thats a relief :D I got a multivitamin she prescribed me so lets just  go with it Ill keep you posted 

heres some Bulmia songs Ill post 2 u  

2017 your welcome

So its the new year 2017 and I'm all excited, it was valentines 2days ago and I had a great time there was loads of people out and about and I spoilt myself shopping for clothes I went to Carlow and I seen this shop called PEACOCK I was looking around at all the clothes and all the clothes were extra thin skinny fit, So I thought maybe some earrings or bracelets and I found a size 8 shoes a kind of dine sore pattern sneakers. I like green tea and its a great detox I got a DETOX green tea that has fennel that will shift the FAT and clear out all the toxic stuff. Im feeling very blue at the moment I don't want to gain any more weight but a part of me is like just eat something small and stay away from the toilet.(to vomit).Its tuff being a big size the looks I got this morning was horrible it made me feel like "hey look its fatto " But it also helped me get my motivation to loose weight,"yeh thanks for the brownie points!! :P " I love my Benson & hedges sliver its great when you get stressed out :D I know if I start to vomit in the toilet Ill end up DEAD ugh :( that's so bad I need to be thinking get a detox and flush out the fat.Theres a lot of problems I have being a bigger size and it just isn't working out the way I planned so Im going to be good and stay away from too much sugar and heal my hurt .Just sit down and relex for awhile actually the best way to relex is by playing with the ps4 or colouring in pictures ,It might sound too far fetched but it works .And don't forget to keep starving till you reached ur goal and then buy something nice like a pair of earrings,(Just remember to not to add too much to your outfit till your at ur 1st goal :P)Who cares if fat wins just remember its a lifestyle and stick to under 500calories and you'll find its very easy to stay away from high fatty food eventually, 500calories would be the most you could eat/drink and it'll be so easy to love Ana lifestyle.Im sick of going round in a circle and eating junk food.Its just not working for me and even if I do eat Ill always have douts ,(Ill choose low fat instead of real thing)If I just get to 7stone maybe Ill elimate the whole dieting and be healthy again,most of the staff in NUA want me sick beacause its the only time ill talk and smile about things! :( iM NOT doing it for them its me I need to do it for me and see how I get on.I rather starve then eat someones brain or meaty pork chops.All they do everyday is right a report about me .So.Lets go my bestie lets do it :) be happy be happy and be positive WATCH THIS SPACE :P

2febuaray 2017 going Un natural My favourite food at the moment is CHEESY DOLMINO PASTA Im craving a lot of choclate and eating chips yummmy :S WATCH THIS SPACE